november, 2023. :-)

10 months after my last post. this is another life update, and i am glad no one is checking this page hahaha. (i checked the view counts)

i work as an interior architect now, and i definitely am enjoying it. i honestly don't know what else to type, it's almost like that's what people usually want to know. 

but since it's a secret only i and if anyone reads this share, i will probably talk more about how i am doing. hahahaha. 

life's been good. i've been working hard on growing some self-love and self-respect, heard it's a thing now, and i am glad i somehow put my nose on it. i am currently happy and content, and although there are things to worry about, at least i know that all i need to do is: rejoice! helps me to regulate my emotions better, and to see things more positively. it's now always nice to know that not everything is under my control and that's okay. things will work out somehow, and if it doesn't; well, i will find another way out. it's one way or another. never a dead end. 

i am in love with my current (and if God permits, forever) lover. i am still trying to learn how to love him better, how to love me better, and how to cultivate this relationship. after all this long journey only knowing how to run away, i finally picked up the courage to learn how to nurture, how to not give up, how to fight for what i want. i am glad he didn't give up on me. hehehe. it's nice to be in love and feel secure.

also, i work out now! people probably know me for how bad i was at PE class, but worry not, after a terrible period of insomnia, i decided i wanted to fix myself. i work out 3-5x weekly, 30 minutes per session. meds did help well, but i also watch my diet and eat mindfully. it's like i'm owning my body now. hahaha. 

what else ya? it sounds like i am doing so great but if it is not all that well. but i am currently happy and content like i said, that's why i can't think of anything bad. positive vibes only, you know? but hmmmm if there is really any, i guess i am still not over some trauma yet. if we're close enough i bet you know what i am talking about. but things will get better too. also, i really want to gain more money. hahaha.

okieee that's all. i hope you're doing alright, whoever wherever you are, if anyone, AGAIN, ever reads this. LOL. i love you. bye.